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Since the transformers dvd collection is almost over, i have purchased season 1 of the x-files.
The 1st season of x-files is episode driven without much back plot. The creator were not aware if the show would be canceled or not. This uncertainty shaped the season, making each episode stand alone. So, followers at that time wondered what the “phenomenon of the week” would be. Season 2 is when character depth is much more established and episodes become driven by a back plot. In regards to creative skill, generally speaking, the 1st season has weaker drawn episodes than season 2, but regardless, it is still excellent TV to watch and I always look forward to the next episode.
this last week a wave of depression has swept over me, like a dead leaves blowing across my brain. this has to do with sucess. my older sister is now married to a guy younger than me who is sucess full home redesigner (rebuilds). i make money, but not on his scale. plus, he hires people. then, tara, my signifigent other is getting her photography published and an exhibition in new york city without even trying. well, she did go to school for art and bought two pro cameras over the last two years. but i have always wanted to be a pro photographer, and now i am living with one. in addition, we will be moving in a few months to another part of town. sucess is all around me, and i fail to see my own. you know, i am sucessful too. but why dont i see it? good things have happened to me within the last two years. but instead, i become swamped by that around me. i wish i knew why i measure myself against others.
this issue is like a blister in my brain. when i am home, it always work work work. i lose sight of the future. i lose sight of what i need to do. it’s hard for me to do this alone. then, when i make lots of money, the opposite happens — i become manic. the only time i find peace and calm is when i am in nothing, meaning the desert. i truly had no idea or concept of what nothing is until i explored nevada. outside of las vegas is nothing. and that is where i find peace.